Knowing something that might also hurt your partner sucks. Keeping in all emotions and not telling them for a while kills you. You want to tell them but are scared on how they are going to react. Well shit happens and i understand that at times it is hard to tell the other person what is going on especially when it you think they won't care, hurt them, or not knowing how they would react. Then the truth comes out in a horrible way. A fight starts one that you think this is it. Let me leave now before i hurt the other person more. The guilt and secrets become too much to handle. But they pushed you to the point where you just tell them and break down. Then they stop and everything makes sense now. They hug you and say it's okay. Now the journey to healing start. There would be a bad day, really bad days, days so bad that you want to end it all and just run away. But they don't let you because they love you. Then you have amazing days. Days where life is just perfect and you see the light the day your mind is clear and the time where you just are happy like no other. Ugh love those days. They one day all you can do is cry because the guilt kills you and it could happen to both of you at different times. One thing i learned and still learning is that men show their emotions different than females. Not only that my relationship is going through this. Something terrible happened. One day maybe ill be able to talk about it but we are still strong even on days i want to say fuck it and run away. However, through the stress, tears, discussions, and much more we still love each other and will fight till the end for us and what happened. So guys dont worry about the bad times in a relationship at times you need to focus on the good even when it is hard. I know shit happens and you get angry but its okay and remember that you are not only. Love can win and at times you need to go through something bad to understand that person loves you and will not leave you.
Remember be weird, be you, be happy